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Journal Entry: Sat Oct 3, 2009, 6:41 AM










just can't get it right :no:

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Australian Journeys Exhibition

Journal Entry: Wed Sep 2, 2009, 7:33 PM






in the extremely unlikely circumstance that you are in Canberra from the 14th to the 18th of September, come along!

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A Daily Deviation!

Journal Entry: Sat Aug 22, 2009, 5:25 PM




Yay!

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fuck modesty.

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 2, 2009, 6:40 AM
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the next few pieces in the Victorian series are nudes.

I think there must be three or four journal entries in my archives that detail my intense fear of submitting nudes here. That would be because I have submitted three or four nudes before. And yet, every time, I felt the need to be afraid and to inform you that I was afraid.

I seem to feel the need to add these qualifiers to reassure some imaginary audience who would take offence. I insist on bringing up "Oh I am so very nervous and ashamed" to reassure you that I do conform to socially enforced standards of modesty, and that it is only through repression of my instincts that I would dare defy any social code.

which is fucked.

I don't think there's anything to be ashamed of about my body. What size or shape I am is irrelevant, it's just an animal that carries around my brain. It is largely unrelated to who I actually am, never more than when naked.

The people who would judge me on the state of it, morally or aesthetically, are ones I would prefer not to be judged well by.

So why do I do this? Why do I freak out about submitting nudes, every time? Why do I feel the need to mention my fear so loudly and repeatedly?

To be naked in a public forum is to express your lack of shame, and your flaunting of those moral conventions and strictures on modesty, and perhaps that is what I am afraid of.

Well, this is the last time I'm going to whine about it.

I don't want to reinforce those social restrictions. They are only a part of me against my will and I'm not going to give in to them, or validate them to reassure anybody else.



The Victorian Portrait Series

Journal Entry: Fri Jun 19, 2009, 8:40 PM




My uni work for the semester is finished, I can go back to sleeping at night and I have time to submit things here! There are about 30 pictures, I will submit them here over the next few weeks.

But first, I'm going to try to explain my recent project a little, just to give it some context. It may make more sense then. Or possibly less.

so, we were asked to do some work for the Australian National Museum relating to their current exhibit, "Australian Journeys". The exhibit is sort of an Australian history in objects; old European maps from before the "discovery" of Australia, miniature portraits of Captain Cook, love tokens that convicts used to carve and send back to England, cameras that Frank Hurley took to the arctic on the Endeavor, etc.

the whole thing is depressingly colonial. Notice how the history only begins when Europeans come to Australia? There were people living here for 3000 years before then, who get barely a mention in the whole exhibit. Which isn't what I did my work on, it just really pisses me off (another girl focused on that. The museum people were not impressed.)

The part that I thought was interesting was a display of the artifacts of a family in the 19th century. There was a collection of portraits of them, all prim and proper and Victorian. I thought I'd do something in the realm of Victorian portraiture. How prescribed it was, how the gender roles were played out for the camera. The way in which people construct an ideal world in their records. I began to think about what was left out of the exhibition.

I ended up with three collections.

The Photograms, which were about the dissolution of individuals into history. They were a sort of... visual metaphor? People fading and corroding and being absorbed into swirling narratives of history.



they were specifically photograms because of a class assignment. A photogram is an image made by exposing objects on light-sensitive paper. I used photographic negatives and layers of acetate and paint. These were also the first time I saw an actual advantage of darkroom over digital - for the most part I feel that it just comes down to how people prefer to work, and whether you feel the need to have gigantic prints. But the quality of these photograms is far superior in person - the colours are so bright and lovely, the black is so deeply inky, their screen versions do not do them justice.

The Family Album, in which I sort of re-enacted (reinterpreted?) Victorian family portraits. I did not exactly copy any particular photos, I sort of made an amalgamation of the features common to Victorian portraiture.











They were collected together inside an actual Victorian photo album. There were also framed pictures, containing varnish, dust, hair, and other things I found sifting through garbage bins and crawling under my house.



and

The Pornography, the anatagonist of the family portraits, in which I reenacted the other side of Victorian society which was not acknowledged in the exhibiton. This included pornography, photos of actresses and postcard women, fashion imagery, and pictures from medical journals (many of which which were like National Geographic in the period where they featured a naked woman in every issue: a veneer of respectability was used to disguise erotica. Need I mention that the best selling medical book of the 19th century was Psychopathia Sexualis?). It isn't really pornographic in the modern sense at all, there's no actual sex.












They were collected in another miniature Victorian album, which was kept inside a hollowed out book ("English Life and Leisure"). There were also dusty framed versions.




I'll be uploading steadily over the next few weeks, and adding pictures to this journal along the way. There are 5 photograms, 11 family portraits, and 11 pornographic portraits.

And in a couple of weeks some of my work will be up on the National Museum's website! Not the pornography, but the family stuff and the photograms. (The work about what is left out of museums has been left out of the museum.)

If you're in Canberra sometime in the next couple of months there's going to be an exhibition. But I am not entirely sure when or where.

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Mar 13 1881
An anarchist from the radical group People's Will throws a bomb which disrupts Czar Alexander II's motorcade. After he thanks God for his deliverance, the anarchist yells "It is too early to thank God" and throws a second bomb, causing injuries from which Alexander bleeds to death.
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the world you think is concrete and easily grasped is not, the reality you accept at this moment will rapidly change and force you to rethink your views on nearly everything, and the person you are at this moment may not be the person you are even six months from now. The world is fast and relentless and hard and cruel and often enough it doesn't give a shit about you. That does not mean, however, that you should stop giving a shit about the world.
A Few Words For The Class Of 2009, Jezebel.com [link]

Large, intimidating thug: So you think you're grown up, huh? You think you're a man?
Small boy: (nods)
Large, intimidating thug: Then why don't you get a job? Move out?
Small boy: Cause I love you!
Large, intimidating thug, more quietly: Well, I love you too.
--Downtown A Train
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pressure on women to look like hairless, hipless eunuchs with breasts
Pimp My Vadge, Jezebel.com [link]

BBC reinvent fat balding Friar Tuck as black martial arts expert: Historians left furious at 'ridiculous' reincarnation.
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From the journal of Angela Bowie:
I had just flown back to London from New York. I entered the house and went into the kitchen, and Daniella told me, "I think Mick, David, and Adrian are asleep upstairs." I said, "Oh, okay," and went and opened the bedroom door, and there indeed they were, asleep in our bed. I asked them if they wanted coffee, and they said yes.
When I walked into that room and found Mick, David, and Adrian together, I felt absolutely dead certain that they'd been screwing. It was so obvious, in fact, that I never even considered the possibility that they hadn't been screwing. The way they'd been running around together and the way David made a virtual religion of slipping the Lance of Love into almost everyone around him, and then the fact that Mick had a perfectly good bed of his own just three hundred yards away from where he was passed out naked across Adrian - it all added up inescapably in my head as well as my gut. I didn't have to look around for open jars of K-Y jelly.
poena.dare, "Watchmen: Easter Eggs (And Missing Parts) In Watchmen's Titles", io9.com [link]

"de Sade invited a prostitute over for what at first appeared to be the usual procedure, but quickly diverted from foreplay into... well, something else. According to the woman, de Sade masturbated into a chalice, called God a "motherfucker" and inserted communion hosts into her naughty bits, all the while screaming for God to strike him down if God was so tough. "
de Sade, Rotten Library [link]

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